This

This calling
This burden
This falling
The world's turning

This What I thought I knew
This What I thought was true
Eno

hard to get enough

Tell the truth, explain to me
How you got this need for speed
She laughed and said, "It might just be
The next best thing to love."
Hope is gone and she confessed
When you lay your dream to rest
You can get what's second best
But it's hard to get enough

David Wilcox
"Eye of the Hurricane"


yes, everyone needs to be loved every minute of every day, but there are lots of kinds of love.

and there are a lot of people on this planet, dying every day, because they do not get what they need.

Surfers

"I don't mind the sun sometimes, the images it shows"


I am telling myself that it is human nature to try and hurt someone who is hurting you. That it is normal to try and find a way to hurt them that is similar to what they are doing to you: teach them a lesson. I am trying to convince myself that there is nothing wrong with me for unconsciously doing this and that just because I realize it later, I should not feel guilty for it. Afterall, I am not doing anything that isn't being done to me. Humanity is a higher life form, my ass. Yep, that's my story and I'm sticking to it.

again

it's raining again. raining again. you again. you are the fucking rain. it's fucking raining again. fucking you. it's raining you. again. fucking raining. you are raining. fucking again.

the only one

"You talkin' to me? You talkin' to me? Then who the hell else are you talkin' to? You talkin' to me? Well I'm the only one here."

Green

In the garden, moist earth beneath my feet,
I curl tiny tendrils around a wire.
“Stay there little one,” I whisper and push
Green wisps through holes. “Hold tight.”
Five pointed stars in school bus yellow
Open and wait while older sisters curl up tight
Around secrets. I look for fruit. I wait
For the fruit to tell me, “It’s your turn. The time is here.”
But the time is always now and the time I wait for
Never arrives. Yellow tomatoes, yes, but time,
Time never ripens, never sweetens.

We made the trellis out of several things:
Twist-ties and black plastic mesh, long, slender rough-hewn
Sticks and white metal curls. The vines grew higher
Than we anticipated and so we added to our support
Every few days to accommodate. We reinforced
To hold the weight.
“Taste this,” I told her. “We grew this in the dirt.”
Green, all green, everything is still green, but time
Will change that. Wait.
I wait.

Where'd you go?
I miss you so
Seems like its been forever
that you've been gone

She said somedays I feel like shit
Somedays I wanna quit
and just be normal for a bit
I don't understand why you have to always be gone
I get along but your trips always feel so long
And I find myself trying to stay by the phone
Because your voice always helps to not feel so alone
But I feel like an idiot, working my day around a call
And when I pick up I don't have much to say,
so I want you to know it's a little fucked up that
I'm stuck here waiting, at times debating
Telling you that I've had it with you...
Where'd you go?
I miss you so
Seems like its been forever
that you've been gone

Fort Minor

Petula

When you're alone and life is making you lonely
You can always go - downtown.
When you've got worries all the noise and the hurry
Seems to help
I know - downtown.
Just listen to the music of the traffic in the city
Linger on the sidewalk where the neon signs are pretty
How can you lose?
The lights are much brighter there
you can forget all your troubles
Forget all your cares
so go - downtown
Things will be great when you're - downtown
No finer place for sure - downtown
Everything's waiting for you - downtown.
Don't hang around and let your problems surround you
There are movie shows - downtown.
Maybe you know some little places to go to where they never close -
downtown.
Just listen to the rhythm of a gentle bossa nova
You'll be dancing with 'em too before the night is over happy again.
The lights are much brighter there
you can forget all your troubles
Forget all your cares
so go - downtown
Where all the lights are bright - downtown
waiting for you tonight - downtown
you're gonna be alright now


And you may find somebody kind to help and understand you
Someone who is just like you
and needs a gentle hand to guide them along.
So maybe I'll see you there
we can forget all our troubles
Forget all our cares
so go - downtown
Things will be great when you're - downtown
don't wait a minute more - downtown
Everything is waiting for you -
downtown

always, forever and after

"And happiness I've known proves that it's right"

"Right" being relative and all that.

Too much time in the car. Too many of the same songs over and over. Too much drama as of late. It could always be worse. It could be a war that seperates us. No chance of catching a plane for the weekend there. It could be the first world war. No email, no cell phones and a couple of weeks for a letter to get through. Hell, one of us could be reading a letter from the other and not even know the other had already died or run off with a french country girl or that guy from high school who couldn't serve because his brother had chopped off three of his toes with an axe when he was ten.

Yup, could always be worse.

I know a lot of divorced guys with two or even three kids. My ex-husband has two kids and HE'S divorced. See, it can happen. Look at Kevin Federline! K-Fed had a tiny tot and another on the way when he realized that Brittany was the only one for him. See! And the happiness they've known certainly proves that it's right.

Oh yeah, could always be worse.